Feeling rushed, always behind, and guzzling my coffee is a very common occurrence in our day. I always feel like I’m counting down the minutes until nap time, Daddy gets home, bed time and then I start all over the next day. The chaos in our lives can be overwhelming. That leads me to being exhausted and not embracing the beautiful everyday of our life’s. I get so busy and worried about getting my to do list done that I don’t sit back and enjoy the stage that my kids are in.
Instead of enjoying the fun stage of curiosity Harper is in, I get frustrated with the 5,000 questions a day and start to get short with her. Instead of enjoying that Brayden nurses every 3 hours still and that I get to bond with him more, I wish he was eating more solid food and that I didn’t have to stick my boob into a human vacuum all night. There are so many other examples of me wishing away time and longing for the next stage. But what I don’t realize is that I’m missing the right now! The chaos right in front of me will be gone before I know it, and I know I will wish it all back.
I want to focus on enjoying the time I have with my kids, NOW! . I want to learn to appreciate the chaos of our lives, the rushing to appointments, the constant questions, even the human vacuum. Too soon this beautiful chaotic stage will be over, my house will be far to quite, and I will wish I had someone to ask me to make them some toast because they are “so so so so starvin”.
Motherhood is beautiful in all its chaotic glory. The sleep deprivation will be gone soon and I will start to feel like me again. Embracing the everyday of our lives is so important and I don’t want to miss another second of it. I’ll drink my coffee surrounded by my crazy humans and not wish another moment away. I can relax when I’m 60 right?